Dear L,
Hello! Long time no see! I wanted to ask you to hang out but well, I'm too cool for you, yeah.
I'm really fascinated with the way we turned out to be. We are friends but we never friends, if you get what I mean. We are updated with each other through social networking sites. We both have each other's number but never exchange texts. It's frustrating, sure, but I can't say I want more.
I'm sorry if I keep reciprocating your moves with sarcastic, annoying come back. I swear I don't get it right away. I only get it when I analyze our conversation evreytime you don't reply back. I realize I'm being too rude and/or insensitive. Well, maybe I am. You can think I'm smart all you want but I'm really too awkward, ignorant and innocent about those kinds of things.
I remember that one time we got in the same community transport vehicle and we were so surprised because it wasn't a thing that happens often. I was so surprised to say anything other than, "Oye," man, I'm socially disabled. But you took the lead and talked to me like 8 years didn't passed. You had the magic that made me feel that, which made us talk all throughout the ride. We were both late but me, I was actually surprised when we reached the last stop. Usually, I'd think it takes too long, but that time I felt it was too fast, when I looked up the time, it actually took longer than usual.
You told me you were late that day, but you offered to walk me to school. I immediately (and quite rudely) said, "No!". And redeemed myself to politely (or not) say, "Then you'll blame me if you get late," and maturely took my tongue out. You asked one more time and I still said no.
Walking to school, it dawned on me that maybe you were trying to make a move on me. And remembering that look in your face, I'm quite positive that you were. But like what was my walls are for, I turned you down.
Things happened and we stayed connected through Facebook. I sometimes give a snide remarks about your posts and pictures and you would reply back. When things are teasingly flirty, I stop and like the your last post.
Then recently, that same thing happened you gave out another clue that I didn't understand. After my rude comment, you didn't reply back. I read back the conversation and realized your clue. I shrugged it off but still felt a bit bad because you kinda ignored me.
I know I don't have the right to feel bad about it because I do the same to you. But you never gave me a clear signal. I'm an idiot with these things.
And yeah, hello to your girlfriend.
My bad,
O.
O.
